hais... am i being selfish when i say i want us to stay with that amount of people only?? i mean cause it's like getting bigger and bigger and bigger... i feel like i'm losing attention.... okay, just maybe more of because someone new kinda join in randomly... and now they are being kinda good friends.. which i don't really like.. i mean maybe it's plain jealous.. and she bothers to stay connected with them while i don't... so i have no one to blame... i'm starting to think that i'm acting like a bitch.... i mean, i don't owe them, they have all the rights to make friend with each other.... i think i'm just being jealous, which resulted in me thinking that way... but i'm starting to accept that fact already.. i'm being a bitch for thinking that way already. i'm not going to be more by sabotaging their friendship. i'll be a real bitch by then. (although i'm acting like one already)... weird for me to be updating right? HAHAH cause i can't type what i feel like in places like twitter and facebook, that's why i'm here. and thank god, there's no constant readers, so yah. hehehe. even if there is, please don't mention any of this. cause it's only behind the screen... i'm not going to talk about this in front of anybody... except for my manager... cause there was once i told a small part of the group about this.. and i feel freaking bad about it... i'm sorry.

but it kinda feels good letting out my emotions... i kinda forget i got a blog... xP my girl's gonna kill me for updating.. but yah, she didn't really bother anyway.. HAHAHAH! AND I'M DETERMIN TO SEARCH FOR THE ANSWER TO HER RIDDLE! although she said she wanted to make me think...

hmmmm... but my brian cell can't move after it haven't been move for unknown years... so yah.. heheheh i'm still going to search for the answers. :D

i think that's all for now. i'll come back to rant again when i'm down. CAUSE IT GIVES ME STRENGTH!

けい

XinHui~^_^V